A Journey Through Fandom: My Thoughts on Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell
When I first heard about Fangirl, I was bubbling with excitement. As an aspiring writer who dabbled in fanfiction myself, I thought Rainbow Rowell might finally craft the story I had longed to read. A narrative that understood the unique, vibrant world of fandom! But as I turned the pages, my anticipation shifted into a blend of fascination and frustration.
At its core, Fangirl follows Cath, a passionate fanfiction writer navigating the transition into college life, consequently facing the pressures of originality and authenticity in her writing. The themes of identity, anxiety, and the dichotomy between hobby and vocation are beautifully woven through rows of text, but there were moments when the narrative drove me up the wall, particularly in how it presented fanfiction.
A Mixed Bag of Themes
One of the most compelling aspects of the book is its exploration of mental health, encapsulated in Cath’s struggles with anxiety. Rowell portrays Cath’s experience with such evocative clarity that I often found myself nodding in recognition. Yet, when it comes to the underlying message regarding fanfiction, I couldn’t help but feel that Rowell overshot the mark. The notion that fanfiction serves merely as a “training wheel” for “real” writing felt dismissive of an entire community that finds joy and camaraderie in this creative outlet.
While I appreciated moments of insight, like Cath’s self-awareness regarding her passion for the fictional universe she loves, the narrative often leaned toward the idea that she only finds growth through original storytelling. It left me pondering—why should one need to pursue what is deemed "real" over the joy of a personal passion?
Writing and Pacing
Rowell’s writing is a delightful blend of warmth and humor, making the reading experience engaging. The pacing, however, felt uneven at times, especially when plot points hinged on character decisions that felt out of synchronization with their established traits. For example, I found myself questioning Cath’s reactions to her professor’s critique—her response seemed more dictated by plot necessity than character authenticity.
One poignant moment that struck a chord with me was when Wren asked Cath, “Why are you reading that?” with a hint of bemusement, suggesting something adventurous might be ‘more worthy’. It resonated deeply, reflecting the self-doubt that many creative individuals face.
Who Will Enjoy It?
In the end, Fangirl has merit, especially for readers looking for a coming-of-age story intertwined with mental health themes. However, if you’re a member of the fanfiction community, you might find yourself grappling with its portrayal. The journey through Cath’s life is relatable, but it’s steeped in the notion that one must break free from fandom to truly “grow.”
Ultimately, Fangirl left me torn—while I reveled in Cath’s anxiety-driven adventures and her relatable struggles, I felt the sting of a narrative that overlooked the simple joy of communities built around shared passions. If you’ve ever felt the thrill of writing for fun, you might walk away from this one with mixed feelings too.
If you’re seeking a narrative rich in college life and personal struggles, this book is worth a read. But if you’re hoping for a faithful celebration of fandom, you might find yourself longing for something a bit deeper. While I may not have fully connected with Rowell’s message, I appreciate the heartfelt exploration of growth and belonging that she offers.
Now, sharpening my pencil for that fantasy novel I’ve been dreaming about!
